Stop being silly

I stop for a moment.
Take a breath,
and start think of all the things I've never done.
The things I left behind for think I was doing the right thing.
I'm unhappy.
I never went to a party, I never stayed up all night with my love.
I never had the one to call my love.
I never could fulfill that dream.
I just exist.
I'm just one in a million.
I'm been carried by the wind throught the years, and never came to the right place.
I'm sad. The cold weather is here to make me see it.
The sun came out and I couldn't feel it, the sun was only a thing up in the sky as many others.
I'm losing my mind. I can't see joy or life in anything. For me everything is the same.
There's days that I only want to stay in bed.
Hoping someday someone could same me from my own trapped.
But today. While I took this breath I realized... I'm only is this because I allowed.
I'm the one who can save myself, I'm the one that can find the one to call my love. I'm the one who can make myself see in a sunny day while I take my breath "You're the happiest guy in the world, stop being silly."

©Leonardo Martins