Saturday, January 31, 2009

...I check my air. I don't have as much time as I need to see everything, but that is what makes it so special.

-Bridge to Terabithia-

I wont't say a lot because this film should be seen for everyone. And the great thing of it is that you start to see it and you fell so good, is one of the best films I think that show you the secret to be happy and do what you have to do.






















"You know, the best prize that life offers is the chance to work hard at work worth doing. That's Teddy Roosevelt said that, not me."









Have you ever seen the sky so beautiful, colorful, wide and wonderful
Have you ever felt the sun shine so brilliently, raining down oh the unity
Have you ever wanted more? (wanted more)

(chorus)
You've got to keep your mind wide open
all the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
believe in what you see

(Verse 2)
Think of all the days you've wasted worrying, wondering, hoplessly hoping
Think of all the time ahead, don't hesitate, continplate, no its not too late
Have you ever wanted more? Don't you know there's so much more

(chorus)
You've got to keep your mind wide open
all the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
believe in what you see

(bridge)
Tomorrows horizons
Full of surprises
Don't let them chase your dreams away

(chorus)
You've got to keep your mind wide open
all the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
believe in what you see

You've got to keep your mind wide open
all the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
believe in what you see
believe in what you see
believe in what you see


©Leonardo Martins

Take my hand-Dido



Touch my skin, and tell me what you're thinking.
Take my hand, and show me where we're going.
Lie down next to me,
look into my eyes,
and tell me -- oh tell me what you're seeing.

So sit on top of the world, and tell me how you're feeling.
What you feel is what I feel for you?
Take my hand, and if I'm lying to you,
I'll always be alone, if I'm lying to you.

See my eyes, they carry your reflection.
Watch my lips, and hear the words I'm telling you.
Give your trust to me
and look into my heart,
and show me -- show me what you're doing.

So sit on top of the world, and tell me how you're feeling.
What you feel is what I feel for you?
Take my hand, and if I'm lying to you,
I'll always be alone, if I'm lying to you

Take your time, if I'm lying to you.
I know you'll find that you believe me,
You believe me

Feel the sun on your face,
and tell me what you're thinking.
Catch the snow on your tongue
and show me how it tastes.

Take my hand, and if I'm lying to you,
I'll always be alone, if I'm lying to you.

Take your time, and if I'm lying to you,
I know you'll find that you believe me,
You believe me.


©Leonardo Martins

Chapter Five - Josh's little world part 2

"So what you wanna know" He asked.
"I don't know... what you wanna tell me?" I said.
"Let's see... I'll tell you about my family, that will tell about me."
"Ok" I said.

The weather was getting worse and the wind making the trees shaking in the road.
He put a love songs cd and started his story.

"So, my father, Jack Belmont met my mum in a diner. Her were the waitress there and she changed his order with another costumer and so they started talk for the first time, and after that he asked her to go out. In a few months Jamiey Pleckwill became Jamiey Pleckwill Belmont. They merried in the Hawaii alone, and they are very happy. My father is a businessman and own lot of stores around america. My mum always liked diners and he gave to her this little diner were you came. He called it the City of Fruits because he says that after he met her he started to see the world with new eyes and this city became a happier city to him.
After 2 years they had me. Let's say they were so happy that they didn't know what to do, and so hired so many babysitters that I never had the change to have a mum and dad relationship. I study in the Habor High School and after that I said I wanted to work in my mum's diner."

"Wow... is sad that you didn't had the change of have your parents by your side." I said sadly.
"Yeah... but I don't think of that, they love me and also do I. You can stuck with bad thoughts, they only dind't knew what do to me, back there."
"That's true..." I said and stopped. I looked trought the window, was raining so much that I realized that go to the beach was something impossible. "So... is raining, I don't think we can go to the beach today."
"Don't worry. I said that were I wanted to take you is on the beach, but not on the beach." He said laughing. "I hope you brought clothers"
"Well, I didn't. I thought we were going to visit the beach, not some place near the beach."
"You're lucky I brought clothers and one blanket."
"Why? We're staying for the night?" I said surprised.
"Yeah! I think I told you that, didn't I?"
"No! Josh! I have to work tomorrow!"
"Sorry Dan. But I think you'll have to call your boss and say you are terrible and can't go to work." He said laughing "By the way, what I want to show you is only in the early morning."
"I hope Richard bit this thing." I said while I dial in the cellphone.
"Don't forget you have to tell me about you." Josh said.
"Hello?... Hi Richard, is me, Daniel... Yeah, well not everything, I'm not felling well so I was wondering if I can miss work tomorrow..." He said a lot of things like, -You're lucky you have Kirsten,and she can replace you for tomorrow, but try not be ill. (If you know when you're gonna get ill) "Ok, thanks Richard. Good morning"
Josh looked at me with his deeply blue eyes and said "So...?"
"You're a lucky man" I said laughing.
"See?! I knew you were going to stay the night!"
"Yeah... you're full of... - I stopped and look at him - smile" I finished.
"Really? Is that bother you?Because if it does I can stop..." He said laughing.
"I don't want, I like to see your smile" I said while I looked the road.
"And I like yourse" He said looking at me. His crooked smile was perfect. He was more beautiful then he was and I couldn't stop looking at him.
"Well I think is your turn to tell the story" He said.
"Are you sure?" Looking at him was away better.
"Yeah, I wanna know about you" He said.
"Ok... I'll tell you like, a short short short party" I said laughing.
"There's no funny. I wanna know everything."
"You'll know. Quick"

I changed the cd and put No angel from Dido. The rain was falling as a waterfall.
"So, My mum Abgail met my dad in the school and merried him in two weeks, and you see..." I was interrupted.
"You're saying your mother got married two weeks after she met your father?"
"Is pretty much that" I said laughing. "Well as I was saying, she wasn't happy with him and wanted broke up, but then she got pregant of me and she forgot the break up thing, after I born she break up and after that we never saw him again. Some says he died after a few weeks, but I don't believe. She worked as a attendant in Wal-Mart store and became a vice president after some years. I finished school and started working at this store and I started some theather school but I quit. That's pretty much about me, I guess."
"Yeah... I was hoping something like And then a alien came and brought me to my mum..." He said laughing.
"There's not funny Josh" I punched his arm.
"Ok! You don't need to punch me..." He said with his crooked smile.
"Sorry...'
"Don't worry. Anyways, you're sucks like a punisher"
"Hey!!!"
"Sorry..." He said laughing. "So... we're here!"
I can't believe I thought. It didn't passed three hours with this little talk...

"You really could stop with joke" I said looking at his eyes.
"I'm serious, I didn't said that it was on the beach... Is out there." He turned the car to a little road, and even that was 10:30 a.m. was really dark. We only could see the grass illuminated by the light of the car. It took us about four minutes to get there. Then I saw.

"So... What you think?" He said after he stopped the car.
"It's beautiful! I always wanted to see one."
"So your dream came true"He said.

I never though it might be a lighthouse the place he wanted to show me.

©Leonardo Martins

Chapter Four - Josh's little world

I woke up 6 a.m. and took a shower, shaved, put my levi's jeans, and my blue polo. And used the same perfume yesterday. I drove to Wal-Mart and bought some things for the trip. And then went to Josh's.
His house was big enough for the film cheaper by the dozen I thought. I parked my car close the garden where other two cars were parked, and rang the doorbell.
Soon a nice woman opened the door, she was blond, and had a happy face. "Hi? You must be Daniel" She said.
"Yeah..."
"Come in. Mr. Belmont will be right here." She said pointing one door.
"Thanks"

The room was quite big as the house looked, and had a nice carpet full with roses, the furniture was beautiful, and had a painting of the family I guessed, a fourty years old guy with a nice hair holding a beatiful blond woman and one kid with beatiful blue eyes - Josh.
I stood there for about five minutes when Josh came with a bag, he looked gorgeous.
"Good morning Dan" He said with his absolutly char crooked smile.
"Good morning Josh" I said smiling.
"So. Let's go?" He said.
"Yeah!"
"So, I know you came with your car, but I was thinking if we can use my?" He said.
"Well, ok." I really didn't understand that.
"Ok" He said thrilling.

It never cross my mind that Josh's father was a rich man. But that was obvious now. Josh had a black SUV. I guess I understood now why use his car, the beach curve was three hours away and definetly his car had more confort.

"Do you llike?" He said.
"Like what?" I asked.
"The car" He laughed "Wait... are you still here?" He joke.
"I don't know..." I laughed.

We were already in the road, and we didn't had said any word. Was cloudy again, and really cold.
I thought he was waiting for me say something as he took the initiative and asked me out. I was really shy. For God sake be a man! I thought.
"So Josh, I never asked anything about you... wanna start?" I said.
"Hallelujah! I thought you were druged." He laughed. "Of course, but then will be your turn."

©Leonardo Martins

Friday, January 30, 2009

Chapter Three- Rain

When I got home was really cold. Started raining abruptly, the thunders were so loud that made the walls shaking. I ran to the bath and took a shower before a blackout. I had a glass of hot milk and sat on the sofa. I took the phone and dial my mum.

"Hello?" She said.
"Hi Mum! How are you?"
"I'm good and you honey?"
"I'm fine mum, is raining so much here... So... about sunday...We are going, right?" I asked slowly.
"I think so... I want to, but maybe Carl's mum will be visiting us and I probably would have to stay here, but next sunday is ok for you?" Carl is my mum's boyfriend. She separated from my father about 5 years ago.
"Yeah... I was calling to say to you that my friend would go with me... Are you sure she'll came?"
"Is almost sure son. Look throught the bright side... You can go with your friend. I promise you we can go next sunday ok?"
"Ok mum... I love you!"
"Me too"
"Good night!" I said.
"Good night, anything call me!"
"Ok"

I was happy and sad that my mum wouldn't come. I was happy as I would be alone with Josh, but I really wanted to spend a day with my mum.
I drank my milk and watched The Office. When I realized were already morning.





It was lunch time again and I went to the City of fruits the diner that Josh's father own.
I wake up that morning and took a long bath, shaved, put some nice clothes and used my favorite perfume. I was happier then ever, tomorrow I would find out the place that Josh wants to show me.

"Hi!" He said with his crooked smile.
"Hi!" I said with a large smile.
"So, I see you survived the rain" He laughed.
"Barely" I said laughing.
"So you need someone to take care of you" He said.
"Yeah... maybe" I laughed again.
"So, let me see... Strawberry?"
"You own!!!"
"I knew it!"
"So Josh, tomorrow you're gonna show me your secret place, right?"
"Yeah! Why?"
"Nothing... remember I said I would take my mum there too?"
"Yeah..."
"So... something came up and she can't go, so you'll have to stay with me" I said laughing.
"I think I can survive..." He laughed too.
"Can't you tell me what it is?" I asked him while he made the juice.
"Nope. I want to surprise you." He said with his charm crooked smile.
"All right"I said.
"So... You you are so scented" He said embarrassed.
"Thank you! It's my favorite one!" I said smiling.
"So, what you're gonna do tonight?"
"I promised go to the theather with my friend, why?"
"Nothing... I would ask you to watch a film, but never mind, you can go with your friend. I think we're going to have plenty films to watch, right?" He said bashful.
"Definitely"

I drank my juice and we cuddle and for the first time I could smell his scent. Was fresh. Lovely.
I said good bye once again and drove to the store.


Kirsten and I watched Juno then we had dinner at The French Connection. I liked our little date, but I couldn't stop think of Josh. Tomorrow I would have a whole day alone with him.

©Leonardo Martins

Lucky Man - The Verve




Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh my, my
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just where I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

Well, I'm a lucky man
With fire in my hands

Happiness
Something in my own place
I'm standing naked
Smiling, I feel no disgrace
With who I am

Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just who I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

I hope you understand
I hope you understand

Gotta love that'll never die

Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know
Oh my, my
Oh my, my
Oh my, my
Oh my, my

Gotta love that'll never die
Gotta love that'll never die
No, no
I'm a lucky man

It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh my, my
Oh my, my
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh my, my
Oh my, my

Chapter Two - Beach part 4

I turned back and walk out the mall. I was happy!. Josh... Beautiful name I thought.
I really couldn't believe he actually asked me to go out.


I was in my car driving to work happier then never. I'd call my mum and said I was going to take a friend. I hope she don't mind. See, I never actually told her about me... But I guess she already knew. I couldn't think of anything, all I could see were his deeply blue eyes and his crooked smile.


"Dan! Where have you been?" Kirsten said.
"Sorry Kiki. I wasn't felling good." Actually I really wasn't... I only could think of Josh.
"What happened? Are you felling better?"
"Yeah, I am... I don't know I was without air..."
"Anything you fell go home..."
"Don't worry. I already had a juice and my pills. I don't think it'll happen again"
"Well... If you fell anything let me know..."
"Thanks Kiki"
"You're welcome"

The rest of my day was pretty much boring, I finished all the work I had to do and I made a little things so monday I wouldn't have too. Of course Kiki asked if I was felling ok every single minute.

"So tomorrow dress up well" Kirsten said.
"Why?" I said kidding.
"Dan!!!"
"All right! Don't worry!"
"Good night Dan!"
"Good night Kiki"

Was cold again, and the weather was cloudy. Maybe this sunday wasn't a perfect day for beach...
I stopped in the Wal-Mart and bought some things and a new cd - Urban Hymns from The Verve. As Josh said I really was a lucky man...

©Leonardo Martins