Once

A new day

As I said yesterday here my college started; and it really sucked!
I had the most stressful 4 hours of these year.
The only good thing is that the city is really amazing! It's really great there and you can relax only looking up the sky.
I hope next saturday the things change otherwise I will get out of there. Seriously.

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Everyone is talking about twitter. Twitter this, Twitter that. So I created a account. Yeah, I did it and now I have one! and it really seems nice! hahahaha.

My twitter is www.twitter.com/leomartinsoc .

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The fight

The sun is weak and the rain is there standing strong waiting for win the battle.
The sky is only watching, He has to obey the winner.
And us, here standing still, we are just looking.


©Leonardo Martins

100!

This is the post number 100, and I'm really surprised!
When I first came to blogger was like "What the hell am I doing here?" But I wrote my first post. Sadly my first blog was deleted by myself, so I can't remember what was about.
I call these blog my new home. The place where I can write what I'm feeling. And with it I met so many great people! I'm really greatful to everyone that become my friend after reading my blog and without you, these post would never happen...
Today is my first day at college and I'm really anxious. I have trouble with first day in school... Really odd. But let's see what happens.

I let this song that is really great and if you to download it click here.



Shoes on my feet
Sun on my back
Some place to sleep
Yeah I like that

Wind in my hair
I just relax
Going nowhere
Yeah I like that

Yeah I like that

I think I'll stay
No matter where I've been
Take what I got
Take it all in

and just take my time
Then give it back
'Cause it's not mine
Yeah I like that

Yeah I like that
Yeah just like that

I think I'll stay
No matter where I've been
Take what I got
Take it all in

and just take my time
Then give it back
'Cause it's not mine
Yeah I like that

Yeah I like that
Just like that

Shoes on my feet
Sun on my back
Some place to sleep
Yeah I like that

Coming true

I’m here sit looking to the screen of my computer, thinking about tomorrow, thinking about the day that I’ll make my first big step.

The day where I start my own life.And looking through all this I started feeling strange.

I remember when I was 10 and keep saying “Mom! Mom! I want to be 18! I want to drive and study in a college!”

My dreams, my hopes that I carried through all these years is finally coming true.

Shelter

Here I am once again writing about another film.
When I saw the DVD of Breakfast With Scot, I saw Shelter related with the film. The poster was nice and I google it and I ended up in the official web site.
The story is about Zach, that lives with his sister and his nephew and his father. He has the dream of get into a art college but thinks that he would never fulfill his dream as he has to take care of Cody (his nephew) and work at a diner.
One day he meet Shaun, brother of his best friend and with him he can find what he really wants.
It's a really delicate film. The opening scene is really great and the soundtrack of the film is really amazing!
If you want to download the song click here!
It's worth see it!

Running

Everyone is running,they don't seem to even care about anything. time is passing through everyone and they don't even see it. The birds out there singing or the leaves falling from the trees are nothing for those peoples.. They are too busy doing what the hell they think they're doing...
Happily I could open my eyes and see the world as it is, a beautiful place where we can be happy and have a great life.
Unfortunately almost everyone don't care about it and continue running with the time...

©Leonardo Martins

Winged Creatures

For months I've been waiting to see this film and yesterday I could fulfill my wish. Not knowing absolutely nothing about it I just dived into it and had a terrific movie session.
It's a very dramatic film with so many life, so many feelings.
The film starts when the life of 5 people is changed after a gunshot in a diner. And they begin to act very differently.
It's a incredible film that is hard to see in these days. It's worth see it!




"You have to lose your way to find it. "

Award

Given to me from Alex, this award have 3 rules :

1-Show the award;
2-Show the blog who gave you the award;
3-Chose 5 blogs to give the award.

My chosen ones are :

The Brit's virtual house
Napple Notes
Os Filmes que passam na minha Cabeça!
The one with the quotes
Nightwatcher and famekeeper

The Secret life of bees

It's so hard you find a film where everything is perfect! See, sometimes when a film is good the actors are bad, or the film sucks and the actors were great! But The secret life of bees is perfect in every single details . Dakota is great and I never saw Dakota so great as she is in these film! Queen Latifah is also great as always. Jennifer Hudson, Alicia Keys and Sophie Okenedo makes the film shine! Is amazing! It's a sensible film, with a delicate story. It's really sad, but this makes the film even better! See the characters life and what they did to move on is really beatiful! The best film I've seen this year!


Here's the trailer :

Stop being silly

I stop for a moment.
Take a breath,
and start think of all the things I've never done.
The things I left behind for think I was doing the right thing.
I'm unhappy.
I never went to a party, I never stayed up all night with my love.
I never had the one to call my love.
I never could fulfill that dream.
I just exist.
I'm just one in a million.
I'm been carried by the wind throught the years, and never came to the right place.
I'm sad. The cold weather is here to make me see it.
The sun came out and I couldn't feel it, the sun was only a thing up in the sky as many others.
I'm losing my mind. I can't see joy or life in anything. For me everything is the same.
There's days that I only want to stay in bed.
Hoping someday someone could same me from my own trapped.
But today. While I took this breath I realized... I'm only is this because I allowed.
I'm the one who can save myself, I'm the one that can find the one to call my love. I'm the one who can make myself see in a sunny day while I take my breath "You're the happiest guy in the world, stop being silly."

©Leonardo Martins

Marley & Me

I think that almost everyone read Marley & Me, especially now that after the film.
I bought the book when it was released here, I can't remember when as my memory didn't help me much, but John really can make you live all what he and his family went throught. It's really a life lesson.
Marley is the perfect image of what our pets do for us. They can be dumbs or angry, or just a lazy. but they're always ready to make you feel better, and if you're sad, they're there to say to you "Hey, don't be sad! Everything will work out!" They know what is the best for us, and never let anything bad happens to us. They are our little (or big!) angels that keep us safe.
So go make your angel feel loved! Go play with him or just lay with him. I'm sure they'll be so happy!
And if you haven't read Marley & Me, try to read, now if you don't like reading, watch the film!

Viorar Vel Til Loftarasa by Sigur Rós

I can't quite explain what Sigur Rós means for me, but I think everyone should listen, or give it a try. I first heard them in the film Vanilla Sky, where their song plays in the end of the film. Their sound is like a dream. And this video and the song is really great, there english subtitles. It's worth see it!

Visit their official site!

Objects of my affection by Peter Bjorn and John

Peter, Bjorn and John is a swedish indie band and their sound is really great! This song, the second of their cd, writer's block. Press play and check out the Peter Bjorn and John sound!

I remember when, when i first moved here,
A long time ago,
´cause i heard some song i used to hear back then,
A lone time ago.
I remember when, even further back,
In another town,
´cause i saw something written i used to say back then,
Hard to comprehend

And the question is, was i more alive
Then than i am now?
I happily have to disagree;
I laugh more often now, i cry more often now,
I am more me.

But of cause some days, i just lie around
And hardly exist,
And can´t tell apart what i´m eating
From my hand or my wrist.
´cause flesh is flesh, flesh as flesh as flesh,
The difference is thin.
But life has a certian ability or breating new
Life into me,

And the question is, was i more alive
Then than i am now?
I happily have to disagree;
I laugh more often now, i cry more often now,
I am more me.

And the other day, this new friend of mine
Said something to me
"just because something starts differently,
Doesn´t mean it´s worth less."
And i soaked it in, how i soaked it in,
How i soaked it in
And just as to prove how right he was,
Then you came.
So i´m gonna give, yes i´m gonna give,
I´m gonna give you a try,
So i´m gonna give, yes i´m gonna give,
I´m gonna give you a try

And the question is, was i more alive
Then than i am now?
I happily have to disagree;
I laugh more often now, i cry more often now,
I am more me.

Home sweet home

Today I visited my aunt, that I haven't seen a little while, I used to go to her house every single day play with my cousin, that also I haven't seen a while. And I got that feeling that I'm old. I don't know if is because my birthday is coming but I can't stop feeling dizzy after I visit her house. It's strange how a visit to an old place can make you feel so many things.

Home Sweet Home

I looked the old house I used to play.
The place looks like the same.
The floor now looking old still red, and the walls broken show that it been throught many years there.
The kind face of my aunt greeting me makes me feel safe. Like I haven't in a long time.
The smell of her house, the coffe and the old sofa I used to lie on watching cartoons with my cousin remains, and this makes my heart go slowly.
The little toys still there, my cousin show 'em to me and that breaks my heart. Mine toys are gone.
It's been so long since I've been here, and it still the same. I miss this place, I used to live here almost every day.
How that happened?. How I stopped my routine? I left people I loved behind. For many years I never showed up here and I can't remember why. But I won't let this continue. I'll change it. I can't let this great part of me just stop of exist.
There were my second home. My second fort. I miss it.
Now I can really see the meaning of that saying " Home sweet home."


©Leonardo Martins

The other side

The car is moving and I'm sitting in the back sit, Kings of Convenience is playing, and I'm looking throught the window. The atmosphere is so different there. Why where I live isn't like this?
The next thing I see is the market... The place makes me feel more alive, more confidence.
We walk in and have a pleasure time there.
Once again I'm in the car watching throught the window the city, the cloudy day is back and the wind is like saying "I'm bring to you changes." At least I like to think.
After a while we're in the road coming back home. And the happy feeling is leave behind. "Yeah", I think to myself, I belong there, I belong in the other side of the city.

©Leonardo Martins

Kings of Convenience-Misread

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you know
It happened again
What do you know

Another bad dream

When it first happened was kind of cool, in the second I said "Shit!" and now it happened again. The bad dreams came along with the autumn and made myself wake up and stay awake for hours alone... The TV my inseparable friend broadcasting Bewitched series trying to entertain me and making me fall asleep is now pissed off too, it works all day and now almost all night.
It's better the bad dreams go away with the rain that is falling out there before I become a Bewitched expert.

©Leonardo Martins

P.S. I love you

When I first walked in in the saraiva store, never crossed my mind that I would buy P.S. I love you. The strange thing was that I was only there to talk to somebody, so buying stuffs wasn't my plan... but when my eyes stared the book it caught my attention... And I bought it.
In the other night I watched the P.S. I love you film so I would see the difference from the novel. It was the third time I was seeing the film. And believe me I loved it but after I read the book. My Gosh! It's completly different! I mean we know that almost every single time a film based on a novel isn't quite the same but in the end they all try to show the same thing... what in P.S. is completly different. If you see only the film it's perfect! But if you read the book you start to think what on earth would make the idiots change the whole story? What's the point? They changed pretty much the whole book. Only the story of a death husband that die and let the letters to his wife was the same. Of course that Gerard and Hillary is pretty much what the writer discribe in the book and it's inevitable don't think of them when you read. So the only good thing on the film are Gerry and Hillary.
But let's not talk about the film...
P.S. is the kind of book that makes you laugh and cry, be happy and sad. It has this power. Cecila is a great writer and this is her first novel. All the things she wrote is so clever! What Gerry did for Holly is so thoughtful and all her friends and family were very supportive. And I never after reading a book felt so sad for came to the end of something that was so wonderful.
I know that I'll have all the tree girls with me for rest of my life because the book isn't only a simple book I read, this one is different, has emotion, life! Is like that I now know all the characters and they are part of me now.
I want to put here the end of the book that I really loved so if you haven't read it yet or you don't want to know how it ends stop reading here and go read the book. I'm sure you won't regreat! P.S. I love you is now in the top of my favorite books!


" [...] She was a woman who had been given advice from a man she loved, who had taken it and tried her hardest to help heal herself. She now had a job that she loved and felt confiedence within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a monday morning or at nigh in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work in the morning. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair today, who looked in the mirror and wonderred why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym more often, she was a woman who had sometimes hated her job and questioned what reason she had to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories, wheter it happened in ten months or ten years, Holly would obey Gerry's final message. Whatever lay ahed, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
In the meantime, she would just live. "

Leona's new single : Run

I'll sing it
One last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing
That's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

To think
I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say
Our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you
Can't raise your voice to say

Ahhh!!

Light Up, Light Up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Oh Oh Uh Uh
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you
Can't raise your voice to say

Uh Uh Uh Uh Uh

If you're out there by John Legend

This song is so great!

If you hear this message, wherever you stand
I'm calling every woman, calling every man
We're the generation
We can't afford to wait
The future started yesterday and we're already late

We've been looking for a song to sing
Searched for a melody
Searched for someone to lead
We've been looking for the world to change
If you feel the same
Then go on and say

If you're out there
Sing along with me
If you're out there
I'm dying to believe that you're out there
Stand up and say it loud
If you're out there
Tomorrow's starting now
Now, now

No more broken promises
No more call to war
Unless it's love and peace that we're really fighting for
We can destroy hunger
We can conquer hate
Put down the arms and raise your voice
We're joining hands today

Oh I was looking for a song to sing
I searched for a leader
But the leader was me
We were looking for the world to change
We can be heroes
Just go on and say

If you're out there
Sing along with me
If you're out there
I'm dying to believe that you're out there
Stand up and say it loud
If you're out there
Tomorrow's starting now
Now, now

Oh now, now

If you're ready we can shake the world
Believe again
It starts within
We don't have to wait for destiny
We should be the change that we want to see

If you're out there
Ooooh
If you're out there
And you're ready now
Say it loud
Scream it out

If you're out there
Sing along with me
If you're out there
I'm dying to believe that you're out there
Stand up and say it loud
If you're out there
Tomorrow's starting now

If you're out there
If you're out there
If you're out there

If you hear this message, wherever you stand
I'm calling every woman, calling every man
We're the generation
We can't afford to wait
The future started yesterday and we're already late

Chapter Five - The Lighthouse part 5

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I woke up by the sound of Josh's voice softly in my ear. I had forgot that he wanted to show me something.
"I think it's time you wake up Dan" Josh said while he pulled me out of bed.
"Are you sure?" I said laughing. "It's really a big deal this thing? Don't you wanna come back to bed were we can stay together?"
"That sounds lovely but you promised me that you would wake up, let's go"
I really did promised but he could show this thing later.
"Alright, I'm going..." I said slowly.

I brushed my teeth and had a cup of coffe. The rain stopped but the wind was really cold outside. Josh said to me to follow him and so I did. He said the place he wanted to show to me was out there and we had to hurry. Believe me was hard walk in that conditions. I barely could feel my hands and my nose was red.
"Aren't you enjoying here?" Josh said happily.
"Yeah... You're sick" I said laughing. "It's bloody cold here."
"I can control the weather Dan, just think this as a bonus" He said with his crooked smile.
"What bonus? That I can froze? It's better this be a great thing Josh" I said angry. The grass was wet and my sneakers were totally dirty.
Our little trip took about more five minutes until we could see the beach and the sea and then I saw the sunrise.
"This was the thing mister." Josh said sarcastically .
"It's beatiful Josh. Thank you!" I said giving him a kiss. "Sorry I were a pain in the ass but I have a bad humor when I wake up.."
"It's better you change, or I'll never bring you here again." He said laughing.
We stand there looking the sunrise about half hour and then we hit the road.


©Leonardo Martins

Download : If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield

Here's the link:

If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield

I don't want to run away...

Download : I don't want to grow up - Scarlett Johansson

Here's the link:

I don't want to grow up - Scarlett Johansson

What pathetic wall...

I can't feel my body
My soul is light and my body heavy.
It's like I went where I wanted,
but I can't really see it.

I look through the window and see beyond,
the wall there I'm looking at isn't only a wall,
it shows the beatiful green place that I can see myself in.
I could give a name for it but the unknown place looked more interesting without any name.

Now the green turned into a blue sea with the dark sky out there,
the wind came and bring with it the strengh I needed to continue.
I feel the joy and suddenly I was alive again.
And then I'm back to my house.

Oh! How I wanted to go back there and feel alive again!
The wall now were just the pathetic wall.
But the wind, oh the wind... The joy was with it and thankfully I could feel it embrace me.
Maybe I hadn't been there, but I prefer believe that that place exist and only I can go there.



©Leonardo Martins

I just need to think about it...

The smell of the floor wet from the rain keeps reminding me that I still don't know what I want.
Why is so difficult to choose what path to take?
I mean, for God sake why it's so hard you say "Yeah! I'd definatly do this for the rest of my life" I wonder if I would ever say this phrase one day.
I already had had an idea but just like that it was gone! The felling that I'd be happy with this job wasn't there with me anymore...
Two months can make a big difference... Or I'm the real "I don't know" guy.
The time is coming and I don't have a clue what to do.
Is the time running out that makes this so difficult? You be pushed into something that you don't know. I wish I could stop the time. Have the power of decide what I really want. Bloody time. Why do we have to live all around time?


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This song by the great actor and singer Scarlett Johansson called I don't want to grow up is pretty much all I feel.




I don't want to grow up - Scarlett Johansson

When I'm lyin' in my bed at night
I don't wanna grow up
Nothin' ever seems
To turn out right
I don't wanna grow up
How do you move in a world of fog
That's always changing things
Makes me wish that I could be a dog
When I see the price that you pay
I don't wanna gow up
I don't ever wanna be that way
I don't wanna grow up

Seems like folks turn into things
That they'd never want
The only thing to live for is today
I'm gonna put a hole in my T.V. set
I don't wanna grow up
Open up the medicine chest
And I don't wanna gow up
I don't wanna have to shout it out
I don't wanna be filled with doubt
I don't wanna be a good boy scout
I don't wannt have to learn to count
I don't wanna have the biggest amount
I don't wanna grow up

Well, when I see my parents fight
I don't wanna gow up
They all go out and drinking all night
And I don't wanna grow up
I'd rather stay here in my room
Nothin' out there but sad and gloom
I don't wanna live in a big old tomb
On Grand Street

When I see the 5 o'clock news
I don't wanna grow up
Comb their hair and shine their shoes
I don't wanna grow up
Stay around in my old hometown
I don't wanna put no money down
I don't wanna get me a big old loan
Work them fingers to the bone
I don't wanna float a broom
Fall in love and get married then boom
How the hell did it get here so soon
I don't wanna grow up

I'm sitting here...

I'm here. In front of my computer and the old songs playing in the radio, the sun is going and the cold wind is telling he is going to stay the night, the birds are going home, and the sky is leave there waiting the sun goes and the moon come. And I'm here. The day that past today were like a funny holiday were I spent most of it in the bed reading... The Autumn is coming... I hope that with it my dreams come along.


©Leonardo Martins

New days

Is strange when you look back the things you did.
You were sure of something and then you find you were wrong about that. And suddenly you see yourself alone in the world... I thought...
How stupid! My mom and friend were there, supporting me, making me laugh, and see that we aren't right every time.
It was hard let go that felling and move on as it was something really unique, let's say...
And now I look that all these days I've cried and thought I'd never find nothing like I thought I had is stupid... Because I don't have to find the people that really care about me. I already had them.
I was blind for a short period of time and now I started seeing again.
This are new days coming and saying "Welcome back!"

Nothing compares 2 U - Sinead O'Connor

It's been seven hours and fifteen days
since u took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
since u took your love away
since you've been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
but nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues,
because nothing compares
nothing compares 2 u

it's been so lonely without u here
like a bird without a song
nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
tell me baby where did I go wrong
I could put my arms round every boy I see
but they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor guess what he told me
guess what he told me
he said girl u better try to have fun
no matter what u do
but he's a fool
'cos nothing compares
nothing compares 2 u

all the flowers that u planted mama
in the backyard
all died when u went away
I know that living with your baby was sometimes hard
but I'm willing to give it another try
nothing compares
nothing compares 2 u

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Transatlanticism

The atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.

Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.

I need you so much closer

I need you so much closer
So come on, come on


Here's a nice video made by a death cab fan:

And I woke up

A short story written by me.




The night was very dark and the clock were in paused tic tacs... I thought the day would never come...

One hour and nothing. I need to see the sun. I need a new day. I need to see the sun.

I look to the clock and still the same. Maybe is a bad dream... "Wow" I said to myself after I slapped my face. Definatly is not a bad dream...

I got up and went to the kitchen. I had a glass of water and looked the stars. They were stood still up there. Some were high and some tired and you almost couldn't see them. I saw the dog sleeping. The owl flying by...

I was so anxious to see the day that I forgot that the night is as good as the day, and as the sun shine brightly, the moon and the starts were there happy to see a strange that couldn't sleep...


©Leonardo Martins

Changes...

This song by Will Young is so great! You can't stop listening!

Gotta shake myself
Up here
I should run away
Run away, run away
People say
Don't even go near
I can see the danger
I'm aware
I see the danger

If I go back once again
It's like
I learned nothing
Standing at the front
Of a queue
Heading for trouble

Hope it changes
Hope my life changes
Gets alright somehow

Oh
I'm waiting for tomorrow
I hope it changes
Cant you stay the same
Been out of luck
For so long
And I don't get much
So there's nothing
Much to lose

It's like a record
Going round

Yes, it's going round
Going round, going round
I know I should wanna
Take it off
But I find it hard
Why do I find it hard?

I used to have a vision
I was sitting
Somewhere up there
Looking down on myself
Doing right
For once in my life
It changes
Hope my life changes
Gets alright somehow
Oh
I'm waiting for tomorrow
I hope it changes

Cant you stay the same
Been out of luck
For so long
And I dont get much
So there's nothing
Much to lose

I just need a break
A little one
To get me up
To watch the sun
And hey
It's peaceful here


Hope it changes
Hope my life changes
Gets alright somehow
Oh
I'm waiting for tomorrow
Hope it changes
Cant you stay the same
(Can't you stay the same)
Been out of luck
For so long
(Can't you stay the same)
Dont get much
So there's nothing
Much to lose
Changes
Oh
I'm waiting for tomorrow
Hope it changes
Can't you stay the same
Been out of luck
For so long